Jan 9

Called Lavin and they are going to swap out the TV stand on Thurs. Tony said he will not go and drink with me anymore if we fight while drinking. He was very sorry he slammed the gate on my ankle and said he could have really hurt me. Took my anger I had, on a slow burn all day, away. He really is a great guy. I finished reading the Pink Method and I like all but one thing, no drinking, we'll I am gonna have to do it anyway. Got to get my grocery list together for it. Sounds interesting and I am looking forward to doing it. I continue to be amazed at Leeloo. She is opening up quite fast now. The little shit is good for her. Got my ultra suede also. I am surprised at how thin it is. I finally found out how they make those cuffs. They are brass cuff blanks. I don't need them yet, but think I would like to make one 1 day. I ordered 2 beading books also. My rivolis should be coming in 2 days. I am looking forward to those. I also got a firemountain catalog. THAT, I like. I find it so much easier to see what all they sell than their website. I see I'll be ordering a lot of my stuff from there. I am waiting for the pups to settle down so I can bead a few earrings I have a pdf for.

Jan 9

crazy weekend. Finally opened the box for the TV stand only to discover it has a huge crack in the bottom and part of the back has the finish peeling ...sigh. Have to call today. Such a huge hassle, they have to send someone out to document it, God knows how long it will take before we get another one. Went to the club to watch the Steelers with Mike. He said something about his wee wee being to small and I said something, too small for me? Anyhow, Tony got mad and gave my face a couple of taps. I was loaded and didn't realize what I had said, but on the way home a HUGE fight ensued. Of course I had to bring up Mike's cousin, that bitch, the one who likes to make sexual innuendos toward all the guys. I had always talked calmly about it. He made a big deal out this and I didn't know what I had said, and so I have to make a big deal out of her. Lots of fuck you's thrown around, lots of slamming things. He even slammed the  gate on my ankle. I threw his keys out the door. Late on realizing how childish it was to have done that. I got the keys, but I really wanted to leave them there. I am still mad at him. He got up and asked how my ankle was and then said he was sorry. Just glad it's over with. Gonna start to read PINK and see about getting this party started. I really need it. I am outta breath a lot and it's not all due to the asthma, just carrying to much weight around. I am tired of being tired. I gotta strat teaching this dog manners, I wanna start making beaded jewelry ...sigh.

Jan 5 (Thurs)

Haha, already missed a day. Yesterday was hard for me. I was so tired, all day. No gumption to do anything, but did manage to get out with Tony so he could find the new place the heart Drs are at, around the hospital. He gets a stress test this morning. I have so much to do before the furniture comes and I really don't want to do any of it. Hope I get this fatigue thing under control and soon. I want to start beading again. I purchased some ultra suede and some beads last night. Hope I can keep this craft up. I must clear away the Cricut and stuff from the kitchen table to I can make room for the beading. I can't do it in the living room with the dogs. They bump the tray and well, you know the rest of that story. Most of the crap that isn't diet food is gone from the house, that's good. I just need to read the PINK method and get started. One of the sofas goes out this evening. Oh joy, not much room for sitting in the house. D day for new sofas is SatI expect the pups are gonna love the extra room for play. Think I'll get those soaked beans into the bean liquid from the last batch made ...yum, looking forward to that!

Tuesday Jan 4, 2012

Big sigh as I contemplate yet another diet. I bought an xbox 360 kinect and I I bought the PINK method, which I heard on Dr. Phil. I haven't read much of the book yet, but plan on it. Story of my life, I plan on it ...sigh. I gotta lose the weight. I feel bad. My asthma is bad, the weight is hard to carry around and I just plain look bad. Nothing for Tony to be proud about it. I am starting to look like mom and Sandy, God forbid! We have 2 new sofas and a TV stand coming on Sat. I should be cleaning the house, but as usual, I seem to be waiting for the last minute. I'd like to start training puppy also and walking him, he's so bad and I have no one to blame but myself. I see how Tony and Nate get with him, I don't want them to hate him, so I need to get my ass on the ball. I seem to just want to sit and be on the computer, what a life, huh?! Well it's late and I should get ready to sleep. I hope I can keep this up as a diary, even if I don't do the diet, as I did in Aug. Sweet dreams to me.